Is there anything better than laughing about how silly you were as a kid? I recently bought the greatest hits album released by R.E.M. and while I was listening to “It’s The End of the World as We Know it (and I Feel Fine),” I started thinking about the times we listened to that song as teenagers. I even wrote a new poem about it, complete with the No Fear Cavalier. Anyway, it got me curious about how the change in my listening habits affects my writing…
We all know I’m a metal-head, a fan of the hardest rock out there. Ripping riffs and clashing chords, chilling melodies and harsh male voices dominate my playlists on my computer and IPod. I guess this makes sense, since I’m generally a serious person. I haven’t had the easiest life, and I’ve felt alienated from my family, friends, and the world for a really long time. However, I have also had a lot of really good times, and good friends.
For my senior project, I’ll be completing a book of poetry about loss. Is there any greater-felt loss than the loss of childhood? It’s a universal theme, even though it can be good or bad. I have to admit, I love being older. If I had a chance to go back, I’d never take it. I can’t accomplish anything back there. I can only accept it, and move on in the now. I’ve learned a lot, and I’m such a different person now, but it’s still fun to remember. I’m looking forward to the poems about growing up.
I’m also looking forward to hearing a lot of great tunes that I’m embarrassed to admit I know every word to. I’ve recently bought a lot of albums I used to own before my mom went on a religious spree and burned all of my music and books. (That’s for a different blog, else I sit here all day accomplishing nothing!) See the weird quirk about me is I have to have music to write. I can’t come up with an idea to save my life without it. When I start to write about something, I have to have the perfect music to accompany it. I just made a new playlist especially for these poems about childhood/adolescence, and honestly, I can’t believe how eclectic my tastes were then. I mean, I know a lot of songs, and bands, and genres, and listen to a lot of different stuff, but this playlist is just incredible to me.
Picture it: I’ve got Tupac Shakur after Meatloaf but before Nirvana…Collective Soul next to Van Halen and Mariah Carey…and Alanis Morissette with Nine Inch Nails before Cypress Hill. My God, how crazy is this? Each of these songs/bands/artists have some memory, some significance to me, and I love it! I love remembering how I felt, and how far I’ve come. I wouldn’t go back for anything, but I don’t think I’ll forget to remember how much fun I had either. Maybe there were a lot of bad times, but I always had some pretty cool tunes to see me through. I’m really excited to see where this project takes me, and how different my views of life now are from those back then.
How far have your listening habits come? Have you broadened your horizons or are you stuck in a rut?